... it's chilly tonight, but it's a good one! P and Stacey have gone to KwaZulu Natal for our Busi's funeral. I couldn't go with them, I have obligations at home. I'm thankful, in a way. I don't know if I could face it. I'm glad I have a reason to stay behind. Is that bad? Busi "knows" I need to be with "Gogo" (granny in Zulu). And it's been a good day.
I left the hosital an hour ago. I left a Mom behind, who was sleeping peacefully, a drip dripping softly sending much needed food into her tummy! A drip that will be replaced with a syringe when we get home. I look forward to going back tomorrow and seeing her satisfied ... and FULL! It's been a rough week with her in hospital, and she was VERY sick! But radiation has resumed, she's hydrated and looks so much better!
I'm staying at Rob's (my brother) house tonight! My family did not want me to go home alone. So here I am ... I've opened a bottle of Plaisir de Merle Sauvignon Blanc. It's cold and it tastes good! Green peppers and figs! It's quiet apart from the pool pump humming gently and water splashing into the chrystal, clear pool! I have time to think, and plan! I'll read my book and have a good night!
Tomorrow is a new day! A day full of promise! I'll practise the feeding. The stress of eating has gone! Taken away. There'll be no more fighting. Mom will get strong and we'll fight this together!
It's a good night!