Sunday, July 18, 2010

No bowl of cherries ...

... unless we have picked out some bad ones! We have probably had our worst week-end - EVER! Mom is not doing well.  She is not eating, she does not want to take her medication, and I fear she has deteriorated this week.  We are seeing the dietician tomorrow, but I am going to call our oncologist, Prof D in the morning.  I think he needs to look at her again, and possibly re-assess her medication routine.  She has a mental block towards the morphine syrup and I think, without lining her stomach, the meds are too strong! But she will argue and say she is eating - three tablespoons of oats, and a couple of mouthfulls of grilled hake ... I don't think that is eating AND it's not gone down without a fight.

I am trying so hard to build her up.  Someone suggested she needs an anti-depressant?  I don't know if that will work.  She says she wants to fight this, but I cannot do it on my own and it breaks my heart to see her in such pain.

I am sitting on her bed next to her right now.  It's bitter outside, but her room is warm and quiet.  She is lying under a fluffy, warm duvet, moaning gently as she dozes.  In the background I can hear the gentle hum of the laptop.  It feels calm and peaceful, but I know the storm will break in 2 hours when we have to take her meds again.  For now I will just sit with her and enjoy the quiet.

10 comments:

Hayley said...

Oh Janet...please know that I am thinking of you and your family!

Sending lots of hugs and prayers!

Jeanette said...

((HUGS)) Janet, you must be exhausted

Rebecca Louise. said...

I can imagine your exhausted with worry but your plan of action is right. She needs to be re-assessed and have her meds reviewed. The pain and food problem has to be sorted so the cancer can be beaten.

I have seen many cancer sufferers come back from bouts of this. This is a shock for her body and probably and anti-depressant would help for the short term.

Hang in there, your being a great support just by being there :)

Firefly said...

Everything happening must really be working on you and making you exhausted as well. My thoughts are with you.

Love Bears All Things said...

sending warm thoughts your way.
Mama Bear

Judith said...

Janet, love, thoughts and prayers come your way. lots of love, Judith

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Corey~living and loving said...

OH no....I can feel your sadness. I am hoping things will be better soon. :( many prayers.

Marcelle said...

Thinking of you...this is such a hard time in your life.

pam said...

I do hope she can get eating again. This is so hard, but I know you have found the strength.

Sending love and hugs across the many miles.